I’d rather have no friends, than fake ones…

When it’s late and you can’t sleep, your mind does a lot of wondering. Well, at least mine does. I lay here and think about how my life has changed in the past two months and how it’s going to continue to change the next two. I went from spending my days with the girls I called my best friends, to now rarely talking to anyone of them. I went from spending my spare time, going out. To working as much as I possibly can. Life is changing so fast and so quickly. I’m getting replaced, I’m being pushed away. Im becoming an adult. Im applying for scholarships and making sure my school is going to be paid for and get done. It’s hard. I want to be done with high school and get out. But it’s stressful. There are two things that are actually going good, is my boyfriend and my family. and that i am so thankful for & hope it says this way.

Soon I’ll be to the point where all I do is work, spend time with family/griffin & go to school. And quite frankly, I’m completely fine with that. I’m not going to anyones last choice or back up plan. I’m tired of being treated like I’m nothing and being pushed to the side until you need someone. I’m tired of being sick and tired.
But in reality. I need sleep, I have to be up in 4 hours for school & have a project I have to dress nice for first block. Fml, goodnight